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Okay so I know I feel romantic attraction but only once Iāve known someone for a while I canāt just start dating someone and develop feelings later I need that connection with them then to develop chemistry and romantic feelings then start dating once Iām sure (Demiromantic) but when Iām dating someone Iāll go through periods where I find the idea of being romantic or cuddling or anything kinda gross (aroflux) I also donāt experience getting a crush very often, I do experience squishes, where I just really wanna be someoneās friend
But with sexual attraction itās confusing, I donāt feel conventional sexual attraction, I canāt look at someone and say āI would fuck themā I donāt understand the phrase āthat person is hotā I thought it just ment the person looks aesthetically appealing, or that theyāre cool and you wanna get to know them, I also find sex is not very important in relationships and most of the time sex is unappealing (asexual)
but the problem comes from when I experience libido (I get it around once a month in turn with my hormone cycle) I find the feeling scary itās like I have a completely different personality, usually even with this I donāt really want my SO specifically i just want sexual interaction with no strings attached I donāt want the expectation that Iāll do it again nor do I want to remember it happened after the fact I just want to do it and get over it, which is why I often choose to satisfy myself and try to pretend it didnāt happen, that I didnāt want my SO there, that I wasnāt craving anything, because it makes me not trust myself, it makes me feel out of controlā¦. I think part of this has to do with the fact one time I was on a med combination that was making me manic, and constantly craving sexual interaction, and so now any feelings of sexual arousal make me nervous , this makes me confused about my asexuality but then I remind myself itās lack of sexual attraction not lack of libido and you can have libido without attraction
Occasionally I will find myself finding my SO sexually attractive but I need to really really trust them and that usually takes at least a year, and I also need myself to be in the mood, I usually just consider this demisexual but idk
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