Every bite of food I take, every sip of water, every step, every breath I'd consumed with thoughts of him, missing him, wanting to contact him, wishing we could talk more and see eachother, wishing I was good enough to make him want to stay and work it out, the same way I would. He came into my life after a series lf unfortunate events regarding my health. I have chronic pain issues and when im with him my pain felt better, managable, i felt sort of whole. I feel possessed by this person, my dreams are only him, my first thought when I wake up is him, and how it hurts to be alone and how much I miss him. I can't eat I can't sleep I can't think and I just want help, because I'm trying to come to terms with this breakup and I can't seem to go no contact, because I just don't know how, and I asked him to block me and he won't