I’ve never had a solid group of friends. I’m 26F. I had a good group in college and then we went our separate ways. I’ve always been in relationships but prior to my current one I took a 2 year break which was good for me. I met friends at work, but I grew to realize we were friends just because we worked together and I don’t truly get along with some of the girls.

Lately, I’m realizing how lonely I feel. I’m in a loving relationship and that’s also causing me extra anxiety because I don’t want to ruin it with how a mess I am mentally. Lately I’ve been crying randomly despite having a wonderful weekend with my boyfriend. I just hate that this is happening.

But really I’m just starting to see how little of a support group I have. I don’t have anyone close to me in the city I live in. I moved here 2 years ago to try and find a good career but that has also not been very successful either.

The weight of feeling alone despite having my boyfriend and dog is really difficult to carry. I want to meet new friends that are nearby but I also am just anxious to start putting myself out there. My self confidence is at an all time low and it’s almost like I just feel that no one would be around me, not even my own boyfriend if he starts seeing how my mood and anxiety really affect me.

TDLR: I have anxiety and depression and don’t have friends in my current city. My self confidence is low but I want to try and meet people because I am afraid my boyfriend will leave me or think I’m too emotional / boring