This has always been a problem with me but the pandemic has completely sent me over the edge. My parents are my entire world and the idea of something happening to them scares the shit out of me. It's gotten so bad that I can't even stay in the same room as them for long periods because it brings those thoughts back. Sometimes if they don't feel well for whatever reason I have a complete panic attack and stop functioning. It has gotten to the point where I feel I can't live like this anymore. I feel dying would be better than living to see them get sick. The idea of taking my life is starting to seem more and more appealing with each passing day. Anyone else feel this way?