I have always been an introvert and just like to stay at home. As circumstances happened, I work in sales now. However, I'm surprisingly good at communicating with people, alas I am almost entirely fake with them.

I believe this might be the basis of my anxiety. For about two months now, say I'm watching a youtuve video, I start thinking there's so many youtube videos, so many people with this exact same idea, no more original things and this makes me feel dreaded and anxious, my chest tightents at the thought of this, the huge number of people in the world, the lack of space for something to be original, and the scary thing that a lot of people out there might have my same style or idea or taste in music or clothes, I feel like a copycat of everything, that everyone is a copycat of everyone else. I'm confined in a small room of very little possibilities to be different, and this suffocates me physically and mentally.

Another example is when I'm thinking about my car, a million people have the same model, it's not special, or my laptop or shirt. Or the way I speak. So many people have tattoos now, there's no point in me getting one.

It feels dreadful, the life and motivation sucked out of me. I have no idea what to call this, or how to deal with it. It's constant, doesn't go away. I'd appreciate any thoughts on the matter, especially if anyone else has experienced or experiences something similar.