I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for several years. Most everything has been dealt with successfully with medication. I have recently needed to come off of my meds and it has been hell on earth. I don’t know if anyone has dealt with Effexor withdrawals but I have never felt so emotionally or mentally low in my life. I am being closely monitored by my doctor and I am safe. Even with these things in place I have never dealt with anything this hard in my life. I have had two low points in my life when it comes to my mental health and they were awful. And I don’t even know if this is worse or better then those times. But the fact that it is due to a medication I am on is what makes this so hard. Medication should help me, not send me flying to an emotionally unstable unsustainable place. I can’t function, I can’t think, I can’t do anything but cry and feel like I am being sent through a cheese grater for the soul. I believe I am on the other side of the let down, but it has left me broken and scared emotionally. Why would anyone ever put someone fragile on a drug like Effexor unless they knew it would be a long term drug. I am angry at my Dr for putting me on it and I’m angry at my self for not learning more about what I was putting into my body. I have wonderful family and friends who have been helping me and my family through all of this, but some times it is so much easier to process and just lay it all out when I don’t know who I am talking to and quite frankly, I don’t ever have to respond to again. I love the reddit community but I also love that when I am done sharing, there is no pressure or responsibility to share more

So thank you Reddit for letting me leave my self, raw and battered, here to rest for a while