I just wanted to make this post to share how excited I am that I was able to conquer my fear, because I have no one else that I can share it with (parents don't like me talking about my anxiety because they think that by talking about it I am making it worse)

So I just started college 2 weeks ago, and, needless to say, I was so incredibly anxious with the days leading up to it. Every day I would wake up and not get out of bed because getting out of bed means going through another day and getting closer to moving out. I didn't eat because it felt like there was something clutching my stomach. I didn't want to go to sleep because that would mean another day would pass.

And then I got to college, and, miraculously, my anxiety wasn't as strong as I thought it was going to be. I took the advice of my parents and therapist, and went to a lot of the events that were going on, despite dreading them the entire day leading up to the event. But despite my initial dread, I still went! And I'm so glad I went to the events! I was able to conquer my biggest fear and just started talking to the person sitting next to me. My heart was pounding so hard and I felt I was going to faint, but I managed to hold my composure and we talked and exchanged numbers! We saw each other again at another event, and we discovered that we were both huge board game buffs! We met some more people and played some Risk (there was a board game night and the University provided the board games) and I had a blast! A couple days later, those same guys came over to my dorm and we played a round of Settlers of Catan and some other card games! I felt like I had really found some good friends!

I'm honestly so incredibly proud of myself for putting myself out there! I have gone to other clubs since then that have seemed interesting, even though none of my friends went with me and I was super scared, but I still met some cool people! And today I did the hardest thing of all for me, I asked out this girl in my class. We were talking about our favorite restaurants and she mentioned that she loved The Habit and I mentioned that there was one close by, and asked if she wanted to go sometime and we are going tomorrow!! I'm just so incredibly happy and I really wanted to share with someone how I managed to get over a lot of my anxiety and fears :) (The anxiety hasn't stopped, and I was on the verge of a panic attack yesterday, but I'm trying to look at the overall picture)