I currently work as a school guidance counsellor (ironic I know, I'm really good at giving other people advice but terrible when it comes to my own life) and a year ago felt I maybe wanted a job with a bit more creativity and relevant to my original degree in media (I later did a postgrad in education and guidance) I love guidance work but I've kinda reached the top of where I can go with it. I applied to a part time distance course and got accepted but while on the course I got pregnant. I also have 2 jobs and a husband and a home to maintain. My daughter was born a couple of weeks early before my first year final assignment deadline so I missed handing in my essay. Last month I spent a couple of difficult weeks writing my essay and handing it in, my request for an extension just got rejected and so my essay has counted as a non-submission and I've failed. My lecturer wants me to appeal the decision and/or do a resit of my assignment but the last few months have been hell. Since having my daughter I have had such anxiety, I've started having panic attacks and even at times considered killing myself. I think I just need to quit my masters and lighten the load on my plate a little but my husband thinks I have worked so hard already I should keep it up. I can't settle on a decision and having to decide is adding even more anxiety and stress, the panic is becoming too much I felt like I haven't been able to breath in months and just want to scream and run away.