I know it sounds like an obvious conclusion but it wasn't obvious to me until now. Since I was about 18 (I am now nearly 30) I have had trouble making friends only really have people I "know from work". The only friendships I have are the few I made as a young kid (1 friend who I speak to maybe 4 times a year who lives far away) and my husband. I did have a large group of friends from college but one girl was extra toxic and added to my anxiety by regularly critising me and judging others behind their backs so I broke our friendship, the others in the group didn't agree with my choice and also stopped contact. I felt better and open to making new friends after I cut ties with this group but haven't been able to. Yesterday I had coffee with some mum's from my antenatal group, they asked me about my new job I just got and one lady was like "yeah we were talking about your new job earlier before you got here" and they later made an in joke between them I didn't get. Also last week I wanted to hang out but everyone was busy, to a normal person i am sure these things are no big deal but to me I instantly thought they hated me and must be talking about me behind my back and don't want to be my friends. I have been worrying about them hating me ever since. I just noticed this way of thinking is what I do with every new person I meet. I don't know how to stop thinking everyone hates me.