Had some struggles I just could not deal with this morning..they pushed me over the edge. I've had 3 very stressful weeks fullof stress nausea and stress headaches I've felt myself slightly disassociating and absolutely feeling easily overwhelmed..but after setting up a Christmas party yesterday,having intense sciatic pain that allowed me 3 hours of sleep..I broke down.

I called my mom bawling crying like a child an d my 33 year old self started hyperventilating and struggling to breath. I managed to get it together for a few hours but after one too many" are you okay?" Which made me break down again..I was done. I had to leave. I've never been so embarrassed but I've also never felt like this..so..not here..I just keep crying..