One of my biggest symptoms of anxiety is irritability. Pretty much everyday I feel on edge and like I’m ready to snap at anything, whether it’s people doing stupid shit, a series of inconveniences, being overloaded by too much stimulus, or whatever the case may be. I’m not a violent person but my anxiety has turned me into an argumentative, high strung individual and a lot of the time I feel like I’m one incident away from having a heart attack or something. I don’t like it, as it’s led to me treating the people around me poorly, and growing to hate everyone or everything when I’m an otherwise happy go lucky kind of guy. I feel like I’m one moment away from raging and don’t know how to handle it. Often times it scares me. Not in the sense that I’ll do something bad but more so that I just don’t want to become a mean spirited person, push people away, stress myself into a heart attack or other health problems, etc.

Idk what to do or how to deal. I try meditating which helps sometimes but I’m not consistent, and sometimes it only highlights or exaggerates the tension I’m feeling. The only ways I’m usually able to express this type of energy is either through writing songs or listening to things like metal or hype music. I want to go to a rage room for sure, but if anyone has any tips on how to cope healthily I would greatly appreciate it. All I want is peace but i find myself so easily frustrated by the simplest of things these days.