Every day it's something to worry about. Something that my mind fixates on and convinces me I have. Sometimes it's old reliable worries like ALS, Cancer, or something else that will be a death sentence. Other days it's stuff like possible hernia, hypermobility, or epilepsy.

One thing seems to be constant though, it is the fact that trying to fall asleep is so incredibly difficult. Keeping a good schedule feels impossible, not to mention the scary hypnic jerks I get almost every night, feeling my muscles twitch, and my body feels fucking shaky sometimes too.

Idk if my symptoms are because of my health anxiety or not and that of course feeds it. I deal with:

• muscle twitching
• restlessness
• dizziness
• random pains including muscle, joint, & nerve
• insomnia
• palpitations
• chest pain
• pelvic floor tightness
• hypnic jerks
• random numbness & tingles
• clenching my teeth

I'm making this post at 3 am as a way to vent because I'm not sure what else I can do. I tried Zoloft and while it worked before, this 2nd time around the side effects are not worth it to me.

I'm so tired of this fight guys... being on fight or flight constantly can't be good for our bodies long term, I just want to feel normal again.