So far I’ve tried Zoloft, Lexapro, Lithium, and now I’m on Wellbutrin. Lexapro worked fine until it didn’t, then I had my dose raised and it made me feel hypomanic so I stopped and was put on lithium. This worked for a while as well until it didn’t and I upped my dose, which led to me being so nauseous 24/7 I just couldn’t take it anymore being that I had a physical job. This brings me to Wellbutrin, which has been the most promising of them all. Everything was fine until my Dr insisted I raised my dose due to an outburst of anger in which I almost broke my finger. That worked for a bit until I went back down because of headaches everyday, irritably, and constant nausea again. I went back down to my original dose and felt a lot better. It’s been a while since then but now I’m starting to feel anxious and or depressed all over again. I really hate having to stop and try new meds all the time, but I do feel like I’m better off without the Wellbutrin sometimes.

For example there are times when I prolong dosing instead of dropping at the same time every day and feel alot better. Yesterday I forgot to take it and felt great until this evening I started to feel weird. I took my dose in hopes that I’d feel better and actually feel worse. It seems like no matter what med I’m on shit always seems to decline and I don’t know what to do. I’m terrified of ssri’s because Lexapro genuinely had my Dr and I considering whether or not I was bipolar. I’m a lot better than I was then but am just at a point where I’m tired of feeling like shit everyday just because it’s not as bad as my worst day. When does it stop and what can I do?