I wasn’t always like this. My anxiety is the worst it’s ever been. I’ve gone through a lot of unexpected life changes the last few years. I lost my dad and another immediate family member to cancer within a few months of each other, it was just devastating. My anxiety has spiraled ever since and I’ve gotten to the point I really shouldn’t ignore it anymore.

I can turn anything into an issue to stress over and I’m making myself sick. Being asked a question I’d rather not answer can lead to lots of tears. Small issues I know rationally are inconsequential can absolutely ruin my day. I want so badly to be free of this. I’ve done therapy before but I didn’t get much out of it. I read a couple books but I feel so disconnected. I had an extreme anxiety spell in my early 20s but I snapped out of it after a couple months. I’m 37 now and this time around it’s been a couple years.

Why am I like this? Am I just not trying hard enough? What can I do to help myself? I want to feel content and peaceful again. I think I’ve accepted the losses in my life but I’m still struggling. Really hoping for some success stories after loss or other methods to cope.