Every single time I approach someone, I get so much anxiety. I’m always choosing to sit in the back of class because I feel safer that way. Whenever I pass by someone, i have a strong urge to wanna look at them because i’m curious. Even if I know someone, I will get anxiety talking to them. I have always had a fear of being judged by other people which makes me think twice before I say something. It’s like I’m trying so hard to fit in with people. I overthink about what i say a lot. My speech is very soft and unenthusiastic. I always find myself feeling like “Oh shit I should’ve said that” Also when I have conversations with someone I tend to zone out quickly if they’re telling me a story or something. I’ve been trying so hard to try to fight this every day and it’s just so hard and frustrating. I’ve been getting better but it’s still really bad :(

I’ve been trying to be more serious into working out, focusing harder in my studies, doing things i’m passionate about that makes me happy, but I can’t help but have this stress and depression i’ve had my whole life because I feel like my social life is such a disaster.