I am forced to take antipsychotics, those drugs are unnatural and it has unnatural side effects. I drool and have spasms at night and it prevents me from sleeping. Every night I toss and turn struggling to fall asleep. Sleeping pills doesn’t help because I violently jerk out of sleep.

I lost the will to live and I’m afraid of telling my doctor that I lost the will to live fearing that she will overmedicate me or lock me up in a psych ward again. All the doctors do is try to drug me. I tried seeking outside help, but to no avail. I don’t know where else to turn to.

I am not at risk to myself or others. I am not at risk of a relapse. I won’t deteriorate without the use of antipsychotic. However, the psychiatrist insist that I am at risk and insist that I take those harmful drugs.

The psychiatrist is making money at the expense of my health. It’s sickening.

I’m only human, they somehow pathologized every aspect of being a human. I don’t need these drugs. All I needed was some therapy. All I wanted was someone I could talk to. They haven’t treated me once as a human with human rights.

They have the authority to call the police and arrest me if I don’t comply.

Is there a way out of this nightmare?