Some examples of my (18M living in India) trauma are as follows (you can read more about these trauma from my post history):

1. From the age of around 5 years till the age of around 13 years, I was regularly abused (both physically and verbally) by my biological mother, father and elder sister in various ways, including, but not limited to, being dragged across and thrown onto the staircase of our apartment, being threatened to be burned alive with an ignited matchstick and regularly being threatened to be thrown out of the house. I was also drugged with Phenergan (Promethazine) in case I tried to revolt against my abusive family members till the age of around 10 years.

2. All the students in the school which I used to go to completely abandoned and isolated me (including those whom I used to consider as my friends till 5th grade) just because my religion at that point of time (Hinduism) was against theirs (Islam) as soon as we got promoted to 6th grade.

3. In 2020, my father, step-mother and elder sister used to mix Olanzapine (an antipsychotic) in my food behind my back before giving it to me just because I had refused to take that medicine due to the fact that it had caused me to develop some serious mental and physical complications after taking it openly for a week (which I only did after being forcefully taken to a psychiatrist, who did not even listen to my problems before prescribing the medicine).

4. In 2020, I had developed fever and had asked my father to take me to the doctor. But they (my father, my sister and especially my step-mother) had feared that if they did so, the doctor would ask us to test for COVID-19, which they were firmly against as according to them, there was apparently no way for us to get infected with COVID-19. Therefore, they refused to take me to the doctor for more than 20 days. They took me to the doctor only after my fever and other symptoms had subsided almost completely (which was after 20 days from the day my symptoms first appeared).

5. Since the beginning of the COVID-19 Pandemic, I have been giving my best efforts in order to try and educate my father, step-mother and sister on the subject of keeping ourselves safe in such trying times by following certain guidelines issued by various organisations such as the World Health Organisation, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, etc. about which I learned from their own websites. On the other hand, instead of following the aforementioned guidelines, they simply claimed that I had certain 'mental problems' and disputed everything I had to say regarding this matter on a daily basis, to the point of having chaotic arguments almost every single day. In January 2021, when I reached my limit of enduring such mental harassment, I broke down and started shouting at my family to get out of the house and leave me alone. As a result, they forcefully admitted me to a psychiatric institution, where I was regularly abused (both physically and verbally) and manhandled and was also given wrong treatment due to which I had developed multiple complications such as seizures, disorientation, severe tremors due to which I could not walk or talk properly for several days, panic disorder and blurred vision. On my 19th day of being kept in the Institution, finally, I was allowed to meet my family for the first time since I was admitted there. Upon meeting them, I told them about the numerous sufferings which I had to go through everyday in the Institution and had requested them to get me discharged from there as soon as possible. But, instead of doing so, they refused to acknowledge my sufferings and left me there for another 12 days (31days in total), which further worsened my physical and mental health.

I still have nightmares, flashbacks and panic attacks involving these incidents and I am also highly suicidal right now. I have told my parents about it but they don't care at all. Now, my question is, is therapy worth it for me? I feel like a psychologist may help with all my trauma but knowing from my past experiences, I know that there is an extremely high chance that the psychologist may instead exacerbate my suffering (as they have done before). So, should I really do it?