10 mg made me blunt emotionally, just flat. Which felt good to be honest. It was stable and predictable and comfortable, but maybe too comfortable....?

Nothing bothered me at 10 mg because no reason to do anything if you are emotionally flat. There is no incentive. It is just living but not feeling anything. Sexually way less too.

So i decided to lower it after a year voluntarily.

Down to 7.5 mg

I started feeling more but still similar to 10 mg, this went on for some time, months. Very stable too.

Down to 5 mg - i have autism so my sensory issues increased temporarily lowering it to 5 mg but i slowly got more and more comfortable with facing my own feelings and sensory levels. I finally, first time, managed to face it in situations in real life too. The rush and adrenaline and the breeze of life started hitting me in the face... i wanted more

Down to 2.5 mg

Life feels great. Euphoric. Confidence boosted. I can place my emotions better, more empathy, more talkative, more energy, i can drink alcohol too and feel stable and in control over my emotions. I can cry, i can let my emotions out in a safe and comfortable way. Personality changes happen, i am feeling like a different person now. More risk taking, more flexible and willing to get out of my comfort zone, socially good and know when to recharge myself. Sometimes i am losing control but it is life, you cant always have everything under your control. Mood fluctuates more but it is very manageable and i learned to accept it. Food tastes better, the breeze outside, the freshness, the cold, the love and the warmth. It is good and addicting.

Future: down to 0 or 1-2 mg soon ? I want to feel more but only when i feel ready and comfortable. That is very important.

This is a success story yes, but the most notable of all is the personality changes and less brakes on my emotions but still very manageable.

I wonder if the personality changes are normal, i am in a relationship as well and my girlfriend noticed changes but i hope that it wont negatively affect it