New filters on the Home Feed, take a look!
view details

This post has been de-listed

It is no longer included in search results and normal feeds (front page, hot posts, subreddit posts, etc). It remains visible only via the author's post history.

5
Struggling
Post Flair (click to view more posts with a particular flair)
Post Body

Not sure where to really start this...

i've been discharged and techincally "recovered" for 11 years this year.

Its been a massive 18 months of some crazy changes in my life which i've managed to deal with having a lack of control over etc.

Just yestrday signed over contracts for a new home, and everything has happened insanely quick.

and since last night invasive thoughts over my eating have become so so loud.

too the point i've only managed to eat a small amount in this time. the sickness that comes with it all is so overwhelming and even after all these years im really strugging to move past it all even with safety foods.

I know some people say its only been like 48 hours but in the last 11 years i've not felt this bad, its like an itch i cant control or sooth like all the last 11 years of having control have gone out the window and every bad thought i've had to do with my body, my image, my eating, my weight etc has flooded in.

I feel like I've failed and I'm scared.

Duplicate Posts
148 posts with the exact same title by 128 other authors
View Details
Author
Account Strength
60%
Account Age
3 years
Verified Email
Yes
Verified Flair
No
Total Karma
236
Link Karma
54
Comment Karma
182
Profile updated: 3 days ago
Posts updated: 7 months ago

Subreddit

Post Details

We try to extract some basic information from the post title. This is not always successful or accurate, please use your best judgement and compare these values to the post title and body for confirmation.
Posted
1 year ago