I’ve been doing pretty well with my ED for the past couple of years but it’s starting to get bad again. I was laid off in March and have been watching all of my former colleagues get hired at great companies meanwhile I keep getting rejections for jobs I know I’d be great at. Every rejection feels like a punch to the gut and I completely lose my appetite. Then I have to do additional interviews where I’m starving, depressed, anxious, and my brain can’t function fully to perform well.

I’ve been forcing down food every evening because I know I need it to function, but the nausea is bad and I can feel myself slipping back into how I felt when things have spiraled before.

I don’t want this. I have additional mental health issues as well and I feel like I’m at such a disadvantage to land a good job.

There’s also the money aspect where I feel like I’m going to run out of funds if I go grocery shopping or order food.

I have friends who know what this is like but I’m afraid I’ll trigger them by talking about it. Just needed to vent. Thank you.