General TW, no numbers but ED symptoms, general concern by family, etc

I woke up and had breakfast at the table while she was doing homework, and then she suddenly told me I looked sick like I had red eyes and asked me if was ok and said if I had any problems I could tell her. So i said I felt ok but woke up with a sore throat and she kinda forgot about it.

I complained about a stupid assignment my English teacher sent me and how I felt like it trivialized depression. Dumb move on my part I know. She started talking about mental health and all. Then she started talking about how her sister was anorexic and REALLY talking about anorexia and health problems etc and commenting about how I wasnt eating that much, and I was really annoyed.

Then I told her that she was never this concerned when I was bulimic and started crying and saying she had never cared about my bulimia at all, which was a real actual issue, and now she's more worried about this, which is something she's making up in her head (I don't know if I really believe this or if it was just something I said to get her to stop). She said that it wasn't true and that she really cared when I was bulimic and hugged me, and I thought the conversation was over and I'd won, but then she asked me "how can I help you with this" and I was like "lol im not bulimic anymore remember" and she said "no with anorexia" and I told her that was stupid and that I ate more than the average anorexic and than my average classmate and then she kinda shut up, like she still kept claiming I had an ED, but she shut up.

She said I looked tired yesterday, which I denied because I didn't actually feel tired tbh, and then about how she had never seen any blood in the bathroom trashcan in the past few months (ofc since I've been missing my period). Except for a used tampon which by her standards had little blood (it wasn't mine but explaining how I got it would count as pro so I'm keeping my mouth shut), so thanks to it all ended in "maybe it's a side effect from your past bulimia (I told her I had lost my period in March while bulimic), let's wait until the next month and if you don't bleed normally we will see a gynecologist" (idk how im going to survive this one). At least my last labs were fine even though she says she doesn't know how.

When I went to put my empty plate away to the kitchen and came back, she grabbed my hand and said it was cold and that she often sees me with a blanket on even if it's hot, to which I replied that I eat a lot of cold food.

Lately, like since the past month, she's also been commenting a lot on my weight loss and "how thin I am"

I think she also suspects I'm not eating my school lunch and she's right because I am not and I'm very scared

Also some days ago she was watching an AN documentary

I'm scared that if I lose any more weight she will just think she is right and I will be forced to stop because I don't want to. I know I shouldn't but I really hate her rn because she's always trying to get me to eat junk and food I can't eat. One time she asked me why was I so afraid of food and that's not true and I felt really angry and offended and thought a lot of mean things towards her. I'm getting angry now just by remembering it

This will also seem dumb but I don't actually feel like I'm really anorexic tbh. Like I'm on this sub because it's the only place i can really post about these things but I feel like it's more of a diet because I actually eat a lot. I know this seems like a troll post but I'm so scared because in a month if I don't manage to have a normal period (or make it seem like I have one) I will be taken to the gynecologist and maybe all of this will be over and they'll try to fatten me up and she will just get what she wants which is a fatass daughter (idk why) and I want to cry