I feel like I'm gonna go crazy with how unfair life is sometimes and the fact that American society doesn't really help... I'm just going to state some facts to draw a picture of my life instead of wording it all together.

• I have health issues that make it hard for me to do physical work all day everyday. I have an inguinal hernia so I shouldn't lift or carry heavy things or else it causes pain. And I have GI issues to where abdominal pain and/or bathroom issues are daily.
• I work 2 jobs that require physical work daily. I have to work 7 days a week in order to make enough to pay all my bills or else I'll struggle. If I take any time off (for my health) my finances suffer.
• Both of my bosses are conservative religious Boomers. Neither offer any kind of paid vacation or health insurance. Neither like to negotiate on anything, everything has to be their way. This is both stressful at work and outside of work bc I can't ever take off when I need it only when they give it to me. They believe I need to "pull myself up by my bootstraps" and power through things, not be logical and take off when I need it.
• One of my bosses son is my only co-worker. Unlike me he gets paid salary so he never works more than 2-3 days in a row and is pretty much off more than half the time. This means I have to do all of the work given to both of us by myself. His reasons for always being off are needing sleep bc he stays up all night playing video games and his gf is now pregnant and bc of that he "needs" to take weeks off at a time. I essentially do a 2 man job by myself now despite all of my health issues.
• His Dad, my boss, pays me minimum wage for all of this. he gets salary, help w rent on a fing house & car notes, spends all his $ on new games, ozs of pot, vaping devices, etc while im doing all of our work with health issues and still don't have enough $ to pay my car notes, bills, rent, etc.
• my other job is mowing grass w my dad. You'd think this affords me breathing room, but he is obsessed w it like a hobby. We have 30 yards and he keeps adding to them. He doesn't grasp my health issues are at odds w this job and it'd help me if he eased up but it's like he is incapable. Every morning before I leave for work he asks me when I'll be off. As soon as I walk through the door, no hello, just cmon lets go cut! And if I want off he still goes without me so I miss out on that money. Again, damned if I do damned if I don't. I still live w my parents but they don't help me at all, esp like my boss & coworker.

Everyday from when I wake up w either ab or waist pain I have to worry about work and finances. I have one boss, my dad who doesn't bother to understand my situation, only cares about money & grass, and never compromises on scheduling. I have another boss who treats me beyond unfairly only to turn around and enable his son w the most luxuriously lazy lifestyle which he takes advantage of to my detriment, w all of this being something I can't really complain about bc my boss is his dad. I still live w my parents so once I'm home from that job I immediately have another waiting. I can't escape, I can't ever get the time to unwind I need. I have no one to talk to to understand my plight. Bc of this all of my friends have essentially moved on from me since I can't spend time w them, only sleep. The only ppl around me don't understand me and are too idealistic & arrogant to. It's the most frustrating thing imaginable every single day from waking to sleeping and my inability to change any of it is turning it into rage. Just daily inescapable rage. I don't have the time, money, or fucking energy to change things which would have to be drastically. Something has to give or I feel like I'm going to explode from my bottled rage.

Tl;dr - every facet of my life is seemingly unfair & non-negotiable and I don't have enough time or money to change it.

If you read this thank you and any feedback or advice is appreciated. Please ask me questions so I can clarify or expand upon my situation which is complex.