this is my first time to post here. i feel like i have been dealing with repressed anger since i was child. all my life i have been badly treated by my dad with verbal painful words and everytime he gets angry at me, i try to be this all golden, obedient andfearful child. From then on, all I felt was just resentment towards him throughout the years. Dont get me wrong but the only attentionand validation I get from him is getting gifts/bribe for when I do the right things by him. My mom used to tell me to let it all go and just follow whatever he tells of me but it feels like walking on eggshells and i just get anxiety. Now that he is gone, whenever i think of him, i feel hurt and angry. I feel angry all the time and I dont know why and my mom tells me that whenever I get angry, I get so explosive and verbally abusive. Should I get therapy?