Right, when was a child (13-16 years old), went through a lot. It's confusing and difficult growing up trans and gay. I was bullied a lot and felt like the entire world never understood me, and felt like the world hated me because was trans with all the anti-trans laws and behaviours in the worlds governments and media.

This made me severely depressed and ended up wanting to unalive myself and began to hurt myself. I went to my parents for help, and the only one of the two of them that truly seemed to care was my mum. My dad brushed me off and even told me that I wasn't cutting deep enough to warrant being depressed and that was just looking for attention.

Now, my dad has suffered a mental breakdown. He's having flashbacks to a traumatic event in his life and he's truly experiencing depression and anxiety for the first time. He's started hurting himself and is wanting to unalive himself.

He's told my mum, my sister and that if he doesn't get fixed by September he's gonna unalive himself.

I'm angry because he keeps telling my sister and how he's gonna unalive himself.

I am mourning a man who is still alive and I'm so angry about that and how have no idea how to fix it.

What's made me furious, though, is now that he is suffering, he wants us all to be understanding and caring towards him, when he never was that for me when was going through something similar to him.

I keep catching myself thinking 'Just get on with it.' when he's told me he wants to unalive himself in September (for the fifth time in a month)

I feel so angry at myself because I want to be everything he wasn't for me, but it's so damn hard to put away how feel about this.

I feel like he's being unfair and selfish by putting a time stamp on when he's gonna do it.

There are so many mixed feelings in this situation and can't help but wonder, AITA?