All right, so this is kind of a long story so stick with me.

I got with my ex in August 2021 after leaving a very abusive relationship with my ex-husband who also cheated on me and just made my life miserable for years so I got with my ex who I’ve been with for years and at first it was amazing. He was a great guy. He was so good to me. He was great around my kid. He took me to on dates. It was awesome .

Well, due to some circumstances, we ended up living together before we would have liked to, but I didn’t have any other housing options at the time so he offered to let me move in since he had a house to himself with multiple bedrooms so my daughter and I moved in and always good six months into the relationship. I find out he has been cheating on me the whole time so when we got together, we had the discussion that if I wasn’t enough to please leave me because I’ve been cheating on for my entire marriage and I couldn’t handle that anymore.

Well, I found out he was cheating and I confronted him and it caused me to have an absolute mental spiral and I couldn’t believe he had done it and he promised he would do better and he acted like he did gave me his password stuff like that was Home more often because he did work out of town. This was when he was cheating , so things seem to get better

Well, further into our relationship, he decides he wants to add people into the relationship to spice up things in the bedroom, and try things he’s never done before which is also something we talked about when we got together because as a by woman men have always hit me up for three ways and stuff like that because they assume that I’ll just sleep with anybody And they can have a good time and use me for their kink or whatever it is well he knew that I wasn’t comfortable with this because men had tried to use me for this before and then he asked me for it and he said it wasn’t a big deal if I said no so I said no.

Well, it turns out it was a big deal and it actually upset him and so that end up turning into arguments about how I wouldn’t do anything for him and honestly we should’ve broken up at this point, but I really liked him and I wasn’t ready to call it quits so we end up bringing other people into the relationship and each time I get really hurt he goes against my boundaries all this stuff. Well we finally started bringing in guys in the relationship because he was like well if I get multiple girls how about you have multiple guys and you’ll feel more even well I don’t really like men that much, so it wasn’t fun for me and when did get invited it ended up not being good for me because they didn’t care about me as a person so they were just trying to get their gratification so I didn’t get to feel good and I just didn’t wanna do it anymore

Well in August 2023 I found out that him and my best friend were sneaking around behind my back and he literally looked me in the eye in the kitchen while I was breaking down. We had just had our anniversary and he hadn’t done anything for me. I was really upset and then he let me know that he actually was in love with my best friend and they were going to be together even though she was in a relationship. She was gonna leave her partner and they were going to be together. Well I lost it, and I tried to delete myself , I ended up in a hospital. Stay for a while getting my mental health better and we tried to work on a relationship because she decided that she didn’t wanna wait on him because he told her that he didn’t wanna date until he knew that I was out of the woods and was going to live and so the same day that I did it. She called her boyfriend back and had him move back in because she didn’t wanna wait for my boyfriend, he wasn’t worth it

Well, we didn’t live together after I got out of the hospital. I stayed with my family and we started working on getting back together because I loved him very much and I wanted to forgive him and I tried my best but I never could really get over it and so he wanted to start sleeping with other people again and he told me to start sleeping with other people and so I actually reached out in December to some people that I’ve had prior relations with that made me feel good and we’re good to me in bed and I reconnected with some people well one of the people I reconnected with with somebody I used to have really deep feelings for and it turns out they did too well. We never did anything about it With me and my ex invited a girl over Christmas Eve, and he completely ignored me and just had fun with her like I wasn’t even there and then after it was all said and done he told me he didn’t care that he hurt me. He was going to enjoy himself even if it upset me so I broke up with him, well when the friend found out that I broke up with him, he told me that he would like a chance to take me out on an actual date and not just a Hookup and he wanted to be more than just somebody. I called when my ex was feeling bored with me so we started going on dates and it’s mid February now and we’re spending days together having fun I moved out of my exes place and my ex is all messed up about it and I kind of feel bad that I’m happy but it’s so nice for somebody to tell me that I’m enough and that they want me and nobody else and I kind of feel like I’m the asshole and maybe I shouldn’t be this happy yet and know this guy is not a rebound, I genuinely do like him as a person so I don’t know to do my ex is still talking to my ex best friend. She’s actually engaged to her partner of seven years and she’s talking about leaving them to be with my ex, but she just went on a two week cruise with her partner so I think she’s just playing him and he’s upset and I will never take my ex back. I was so unhappy when we were together it doesn’t matter how much I care about him, so am I the asshole for moving on and being happy two months after I broke up with my long-term boyfriend?