So burner account for obvious reasons.

I just moved 15hrs away from my old home, to a province I’ve never been, to a place where I know no one aside from my roommate. I have plans to upgrade school and go to university here, I’ve already got a job at starting next week, so a few months ago when my buddy said they would let me live with them, I said hell yeah!!

Well…I got here two nights ago and it’s been hell. My roommate is a hoarder, not as bad as some of the stuff I’ve seen on those shows, but it’s the worst I’ve ever seen someone live in. And mind you, I’m not a super organized person but you can’t even function in this. There’s no room to move around, I haven’t eaten anything in 2 days because I can’t even use the kitchen and I can’t afford to eat out. There’s a horrible fruit fly infestation from all the empty bottles and cans laying around…it’s gross. My roommate works fulltime and I can understand mental illness being a struggle in regards to how it has gotten this bad, but when she said “it’s a little messy” I did not expect…well, this.

So, I at least want to try and make the common areas work so I can actually unpack my things and move in to my room and cook a meal, etc. I started today, I’m not throwing good items out, more so sorting into like things so she can go through them and decide what’s important because I don’t know. She comes home and starts yelling at me for making a mess and to stop touching things even after she has said I was allowed to make myself at home and help myself as long as I didn’t go in her room, totally fair. But how do you expect me to live in this?? She deserves better, I deserve better.

I feel so stuck and now I just feel rude and stuff about having even tried to just simply clean the kitchen so I could make us a proper meal. Idk, I feel way in over my head and now I just feel shitty about making her upset. I’d move somewhere else if I could but there’s no affordable housing here, I’m stuck here and have to work with this but idk how.