My[32] brother[33] passed away a little over a month ago. We were close and very good friends growing up.

He had a difficult battle with cancer. 6 months ago when he was told that his time is more precious now than ever, I stayed over with him and his family, working from home and helping them out as we were hoping to turn it all around for him.

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He's survived by his wife and a 4 year old boy. He earned well, his wife earns well and I'm well off as well. I live a few miles away from them. As much as I enjoy time with my nephew I don't enjoy the presence of my sis-in-law. There have been events in the past where I've not felt gratitude or respect for what I've been to them. Although there's more humility now I'm wary of having even a sound friendship with her. In these 6 months that I stayed over with them, I did however develop a deeper relationship with my nephew.

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I try to spend some time with my nephew every other weekend and other important days when they come up but I don't want to be very much involved. I've a busy life, a full time job and hobbies and aspirations that I enjoy chasing. However, I'm not able to enjoy it all as much as before since I worry a little in the back of my mind about them.