I have a friend group of around five people. I haven't been as close with them as of late because most of us worked together and after Covid we just weren't around each other as often. I started to notice that me and one of my friends were not getting invited to get togethers as often, but was not super bothered by this. Also if I was invited, I wasn't getting invited until everyone had already been there or I was only invited through one of the friends.

So, an incident had occurred where I had a get together with my other friends and I did not invite this specific friend group because I wanted it to be a more chill gathering. Once the friend group found out about this they got upset. There was some back and forth of people getting upset, but no one came to me about this. I did go to one of the friends and I let them know I just wanted the gathering to be smaller and I also brought up the fact that I do not get invited to most of the get togethers that they have, so I didn't feel like anyone should have been upset with me.

After this I have been ok with everyone, but I have definitely been left out of big events with the group and other small gatherings even. It's been hinted that one of the friends has purposefully left me out of things because of the one time I didn't invite this group to my small get together. I had voiced my feelings to the friends, but one of my friends seems to be annoyed with me for feeling how I do. This friend wants me to stay friends with everyone, but in a way that only feels convenient to everyone else.

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Am I the asshole for venting when I don't get invited to things and saying that I want to distance myself from the group?