I remember the first time I took an entire naltrexone and felt so terrible for an entire day.

I’d talked a brilliant GP into letting me try it after reading about it on the web after descending into a depth of human misery and suffering I think anyone reading this would understand.

The problem was I couldn’t take 50, and 25 sort of worked but not totally. Interestingly it worked fine at first, then totally too low, and then towards extinction 25 held me fine.

I ended up through trial and error finding 31.25 was the balance between could drink without nausea and without blackout. Ondanzatron is a godsend.

And it was here that encouraged me to keep going. I never missed a dose but fuck if you do, let it go, just take it next time.

A word of caution, I in my alcoholic ego thought because quitting alcohol was easier on nal, and as it turns out not even really a conscious decision, I just stopped and didn’t start again, that the rest of the alcoholic experience of trauma didn’t either.

About a year ago and about five months after quitting I, in a traumatic break with reality, recovered memories of abuse in my childhood that have been devastating to me and my family and loved ones.

BUT in even the depths of that true madness I did not touch alcohol once or even think to. Naltrexone worked even when I hadn’t taken it in months, it was still keeping me safe. That remains all I need to know about Sinclair method. Does it work? My god yes.

So much has changed since then and I have healed in ways I never thought possible and healed my ‘world.’ I’m very happy to say alcohol doesn’t impact my people these days much.

Many people just over drink because their brains drink too much, for some it’s that plus a lot more.

For that reason I think some people just become untroubled moderate to low normal drinkers. I was for about a year before extinction. But for me there’s no healthy relationship with alcohol and I have healthy but very firm boundaries around it these days as well. I won’t go to a bar and i tell people im a car, I can only be engaged under 0.05 on a breathalyser. If you’ve had six pints im out.

Really be open to the support you need and ask for help if you need it and keep taking naltrexone every time you drink is the only real advice here.

And ask here a lot. This community was my daily check in and place to talk and reflect. I got so much from knowing we’re all here together. I love reading the ‘I just had a normal night with two beers for the first time in my life’ posts. What a moment.

I really love you guys whether post extinction or taking it for the first time or healthy and happy in between. I really hope you’re well and doing good.

And work on the other side too, when your endorphins are up go and get a nice thing that’s just for you. You really deserve the happiness.