Surprise, surprise. Another [M4F] post that will get lost in the sea of all the others to be deleted at some point when I look back at the failed posts. So let's get right to the point and be honest about it.

I am 41, caucasian, hazel eyes, bald and bearded (brown). Standing 5'9" with a heavy set build (dad bod I guess) at 245lbs. It has been 5 years since my one and only relationship of 22 years ended. During these past few years I have wondered if I want a girlfriend with the potential of more, a FWB, a fling or just a fuck buddy. Do you know what conclusion I have come to? Absolutely nothing. How can you make that decision without someone beside you that makes you feel strongly enough to make that decision? So I guess I am waiting for the right woman.

I could be vulgar or explicit, but what then would make me any different than any of the sea of posts this one resides in. No dick picks, no crase descriptions of sexual acts or grand promises of pleasure and positions, not for a lack of ability but rather a sense of respect.

I know what I do want though, to some extent. I need a true connection, one forged through a face-to-face meet where we both feel the energy of each other's presence and wish to continue. I want to both be attracted to and feel attractive to a woman in a way that does not feel cheap or contrived. A conversation that does not feel forced as well as the semblance of enough trust to comfortably leave a room and not wonder if anything will be missing when I return.

So what am I attracted to? Independent, motivated and adventurous women. Someone that does not need me but wants me in their life. I wish I could say that appearance does not matter but we all have our preferences and mine are hypocritical to be honest. 30-45 years of age with no current preference of height, hair color or nationality. All women are beautiful, however a size 8 or smaller gets my attention far more frequently when I venture out into the world. My apologies, but it is true.

To avoid a further wall of text I will stop rambling here and hope that someone has been willing to read through this all and still wishes to meet. Feel free to ask me absolutely anything and I will be as truthful and forward as possible. No lies, no embellishments and completely up-front.