So you had a heartbreak you will always remember (for the nth time by the same person for months hayyy).

Tapos alam nyo ba yung feeling na, you move on syempre and you try to talk to other people -- sometimes there's flirting, sometimes just on a platonic level -- tapos you start to get comfortable sa kausap mo, biglang babalik yung huling heartbreak experience mo in your mind and sobrang nadi-discourage ka na kahit wala pa namang nangyayari.

"Ay ipapalit din ako neto" "Ay aalis din to" "Ghost to after 2 days" "Ako na naman talo neto for sure" "Asa ka pang someone will stay sayo, di ka pa ba natuto"

Inuunahan mo na and you can't help it. Takot na takot kang maging disappointment na naman sa paningin nila. Kahit na they're so, so nice and everything and the conversation is going so well.

Yung kahit ang saya ng takbo sa convo nyo, bigla-bigla na lang magf-form yung takot sayo.

Parang hinahanda ko na sarili ko agad. Na never naman ako magiging enough for someone. Na ako yung laging pinapalitan because maybe I'm lame. I'm not as extravagant. Na hanggang "option" lang naman ang category ko. Na they will realize in the end na wala naman talaga akong kwenta.

Wala ka na ngang self-esteem to begin with, lalo pang nawala na nasa negative levels na haha.