I just got home and wala lang, medyo feel ko lang maging emotional tonight. Random thought ko rin kasi ito kanina habang nagda-drive pauwi. 

So I met with some friends earlier and we went to BGC. Tambay lang, ganun. Tapos noong mag-uuwian na, I offered to drive them home in QC. I live in Manila, btw. But it didn’t matter to me kung mas mapapalayo pa ako, because maybe, gusto ko lang din i-extend yung time na hindi ako mag-isa. Bihira na lang din naman kami magkita-kita these days. So after dropping them off, yes, medyo na-miss ko yung ingay ng kwentuhan nila, but other things occupied my mind more.

Sanay naman ako mag-isa pero at some point, I also want to have someone I can message “can I see you?” any time. Someone I can ask “can I hug you?” or “can you just hug me?” after a long tiring day without feeling that it’s too much. Someone I can always run to. Maybe others will say “mag-self-love” or “focus on yourself”, but I’m just so tired.

Ayaw ko nang bahay na lang lagi yung inuuwian ko. I want to go home to someone too.