My(F24) Q is my ex boyfriend (22). We dated for two years; he didn’t tell me he was an alcoholic until 5 weeks before we were set to move in together in college (16 months into the relationship). We had done long distance for most of the relationship because of the pandemic, so I really didn’t see it firsthand as it got bad. He broke up with me 2.5 months ago after I fell into a deep depression during the last 6 weeks of the relationship. I’ve gone NC, except for sending one text apologizing for my role in the breakup. I was really depressed and anxious about relapse (I didn’t know this group existed) because he promised he would enter recovery, but then stopped doing it about a month and a half in. He graduated, but he got a job at the school’s admissions office (ostensibly, in part, so that we could stay together for longer) and I work for the admissions office part-time as well. He’s going to be my superior in the office. It’s a small school so it’s likely I’m going to run into him within the next month, soon after school starts again. The relationship really fucked me up and I am so scared to see him again. I blamed myself for so long following the breakup and then about 7 weeks in, the tides turned and I realized how much he hurt and manipulated me. I’m so worried about the ways in which he may show up in my life again. I’m worried about being manipulated. I want a serious apology and an acknowledgement of wrongdoing (which I know is unlikely), but I worry that even if it comes, he’ll just be using it as a way to manipulate me again. Ive been working through codependency issues and through my depression, but I’m worried about not being strong enough to deal with a situation in which I have to be around him. Any advice would be much appreciated.