I don't even know where to start. The title says it all and the tag. 7 months, relapsed. Last night.

If you haven't read my few posts, the tldr is my brother was homeless for 2 years, asked for help finally, I found him near death and convinced him to go to rehab.

He's been depressed and bored and crashing on my couch. I got him a job. I drive him everywhere. The deal was he would get his life together, and zero drinking. He agreed.

Last night he was happy. I hate that was my first indicator that something was wrong. Him being happy and smiling for once. He played Operation with my and my boyfriend and my daughter last night. I was trying to brush off my suspicion, but when he left for the bathroom I found his child cup with vodka in it next to where he sleeps on the couch.

I took it. I didn't say anything but I took it.

He was frantic looking for it later. I wasn't going to address him drunk, but I wanted him to know that I'm not stupid, so I took the cup.

I waited til we got to work this morning and I confronted him. I told him that he already knew what we needed to talk about, and he said yes.

He tried to deny it a bit. Saying he didn't drink, he tried to but couldn't. I told him we made the deal and he made his own decision, and he had to find somewhere else.

He said he didn't have anyone or anywhere so he was going to shoot himself in the head...

He's in the hospital under an involuntary hold right now. He is so mad at me...I keep wondering if I did the wrong thing calling the police and not trying to talk him down or give him another chance...maybe he is being truthful...

But I know in the back of my mind he is downplaying it so I doubt my decision. And it was working...but I just cleaned up gus piss off the couch from last night when he was too drunk to get up to go to the bathroom.

Please tell me I'm doing the right thing...my heart is in pieces. If am sick to my stomach. I can't stop crying. I keep trying to tell myself I have to make this decision to keep him at a distance, but it feels wrong. I feel like I'm going to lose my brother today forever.