21f here. i really want to come on here and explain my situation because i need advice really badly.

but for now im just gonna say that i am broken. i just had to call the cops on my ex because he tried to overdose. i know he has had issues with coke and drinking really badly but i found out he was smoking crack. I am in shock.

i talked to my friend on the phone who also struggles heavily with addiction and she was saying it’s gonna get better etc. but my own dad died from drugs when I was 9. He was the best father I ever could have asked for. He showed up for me when I needed him. I visited him every weekend. He loved me so much and he still couldn’t get better even though he had a daughter to live for. My ex feels like he has nothing. And to be honest, he doesn’t have much going for him right now. He is still in love with me and last night he was saying he’s never going to stop trying to be with me and that life is pointless without me. I told him we would never be together again. And then this happens of course.

I hate even talking like this because I’m not the victim here. But I just am so fucking done with watching people I love fall into this disease it is killing me. All of these old feelings I have about my fathers passing are coming back and it’s making me feel horrific about this situation because I just feel like my ex is gonna fucking die.

What do I do? People say it’s not your responsibility, protect yourself first. But how would you feel knowing that literally no one else gives a fuck? His parents don’t care. His friends don’t care. How am i supposed to just sit back and watch this happen?

I don’t know if sub is the wrong place for this so I’m sorry I’m advance. And if anyone actually reads this, thank you for listening to me.