I won't stick around for him to start with the vodka all over again. Not to mention he is so immaturely grumpy when he doesn't get to drink because he would self medicate... I am done being his house maid and nanny. I'll give him twenty years to grow up and dream of deserving me. The only person I have control of is me and that is fine by me! Being in a relationship period sounds like the last thing I want for a long time, if ever. Thanks alcohol for ruining yet another should have been for life relationship for me. Peace.

Update: As I am packing my things and I tell him I am leaving he says, "Maybe if you had spent this kind of energy organizing and cleaning it wouldn't be like this." ... I have a neck injury that causes me chronic pain and still am waiting for physical therapy. I went to orthopedics and had an MRI and everything. Still he ignores it and just wants some service from me. It's all he sees me as-- how can I benefit him?

Final update: So I left. Staying at my dad's snowbird trailer on the water and can use it as long as it takes to get on my feet again, even if they don't get to fly north for the summer.

My now ex boyfriend admitted to me that he had wanted to break up for a long time but didn't have the heart to break my heart. So I definitely don't see myself wussing out and crawling back. At least I was the one with the balls to end it. Too bad he felt the need to instead make my life a rollercoaster of happiness and misery while he himmed and hawed about it. I will be so much better off. But somehow it breaks my heart even further.