I (18M) have a bestfriend (18F) that I met through chat at first and got really close with in the first few months of our college.

Being an introvert, it was really hard for me to build connections, but this girl, before we even had the chance to meet ranted a whole lot of her personal problems to me, which made me quite happy that someone would trust me. The thing is, through her rants I learned her suicidal tendencies which made me quite guarded in regards to what I tell her because I knew, just one wrong move and she might be on her way up (or down).

I for one, have experienced the suicidal thoughts but never went through with it, so I know what she's going through and felt quite protective of her. We had quite a lot of similarities, so it was easy to get so close with her.

I do love her so much as a friend, it's purely platonic, maybe because I can never get attracted to the opposite gender.

However, she is a very touchy person. When we're together, my hands or arms would always be snatched up by her (as if we're a couple). Sometimes I would be so surprised because she would suddenly hug me from behind. Worst of all is that whenever I arrive at school and she sees me, she would just hug me tightly and would not let go.

It was quite embarassing in front of so much people, I for one am not uncomfortable with hugs or touches AT ALL. I'm quite touchy with my friends too, when walking I would cross my arms with them or when I'm feeling sad or quite happy I would ask for a hug. However, she's just too much it's overwhelming, there's no consent at all to her touches whether you like it or not, when she's around then expect your personal space to be just gone.

It is not only with me that she does this kinds of stuffs, but also almost half of our block, and everyone is in the same opinion that it's not appropriate and just overall not a very good experience. However, what she does with everyone is not even half of what she does to me.

I have actually talked to her about it not even a month into our friendship, but my protests just entered the right ear and left through the other. After that though I couldn't give her another warning because like I said, she's suicidal and there is so much work to do in college we are all too overwhelmed, and being her current 'mental support' I wanna at least help her through the hard times.

This does not mean that I didn't try to stop it though, as months passed my attempts at dodging or getting out of her grip has just escalated more and more. It got to the point that everyone, and I mean everyone can see the way I try to dodge her, but she still HASN'T. I don't know at this point, if she's at least noticed it, or just ignored all of my attempts because she is in need of hugs or whatnot.

Her touches have become so much that it's become so uncomfortable and unbearable. It makes me dread having to walk in on our class and seeing her literally running to me just to hug me.

At this point, I just can't anymore, fck her depression, fck her suicidal tendencies, I'm done with having to feel like I have to guard my body every time she's near, and having no freaking personal space, which is a very important thing to me as an introvert person.

So I opened the topic to our circle to maybe stop all of her touches and for her to see my problems with her so she could change it. This decision resulted in the most peaceful 4 days of my college life, just happy with going to the campus with no worries of being 'touched' by anyone unless I initiated it with freaking consent.

However after the 4 days, she came back to the circle saying her sorry not only to what she's done to me but also what she's done to everyone in our group. I accepted it, hoping she at least learned her lesson and finally stop the touches.

Emphasis on hoping, she haven't changed at all, it's as if nothing happened and we haven't told her of habits she needs to get rid off. So, I decided f*ck it, fool me once my fault, fool me twice also my fault, but you're not getting the chance to fool me for the third time.

So I cut her off, which I will never regret, but at the back of my mind there's this little saboteur asking me what if me cutting her off finally became the last straw which would make her end her life?

ABYG?