Okay, before that title freaks you out, let me say two things up front:

1. This post represents vulnerability for me, and I had to get some weed in me to do it
2. I'm literally almost at the end of my hope and this may be my last post on the matter

So a bit about me: Divorced, no kids, E/INFP-t, a C-PTSD survivor, ambivert (but heavy on the I), cat dad, writer/musician, bookworm, inked, somewhat pierced, pro-choice, and an utter hopeless romantic. I love history and documentaries and comedy and Netflix and literature and old movies from the 40s and Harry Potter and Star Wars and LOTR and traveling and being a homebody/hermit. I spend most of my life in pajamas. I'm seeking something serious, a connection based authentic conversation and the sort of intimacy that comes from intellectual and emotional vulnerability. I want someone who will open up, as I will open up. I'm NOT here to sext.

As to the title, I will explain that only if and when I feel a connection has gotten to a place where I can tell someone about my plan. Oh, yes I've got a plan in the works, one I'm actually capable of pulling off, and I've got some sweet aces up my sleeve. I'm essentially starting life completely over from scratch, a wiping of the slate and a new beginning. Based on the traumas I've come through and my reflections on them, I've come to firmly understand certain things about life and what I want from it. I have quite an alternative lifestyle in mind. But it's the only one I can imagine that would make me actually feel "free" and "alive." I could do this alone if I wanted, but that's no fun. Everything is better when it's shared, and I say that as an intro leaning ambivert. Besides, anyone who doesn't know that women make everything better is just a damn fool.

As to the woman, some things are very important. I've tended to do better with introverted women, so that would be nice. And yet, she must have a sense of adventure, even if she's shy. She has to want someone more out of life, you know? Something else. Something off the beaten path. Regular life is boring to her, as it is to me. Obviously I hope she's sweet and loving and caring and all that. Emotionally available. Age is less important to me than maturity. As far as looks go, I tend toward heavier women. I suppose I'd say there are two dealbreakers there, but I don't want to talk about them out here. It would be great if she was a musician of some sort, but it's not necessary.

Oh, regarding dealbreakers, here's one I will say: She MUST be childfree. This doesn't mean she can't want children. I just mean she can't have any in tow right now.

Also, one hopes she wants to be somewhere other than where she is, hence the title.

Peace.