I search for Father Christmas. That one, who will marry me. I know, this text will be a lonely cry in a desert Gobi, and will stay without answer. Single F, Europe, 35 y.o., 168 sm/64 kg, pale skin, average building (not fat), long hairs, no kids. No bad habits. I'm very lonely in life and feel lost. Your country, age, appearance are not important. I prefer older person, who already knows, what he wants, who's love language is acts of service, not just words. I'm not interested to hear: "We will start as a friends and with time, maybe, you will be my girlfriend and then we will see". No, I'm here not to search for a boyfriend, because I'm not a teenager any more. Only that one, who can connect fast, make decision, if we match, fast and meet in real life fast. Without making me to wait for ages. You can be not attractive, but you should be always honest with me and other people. I search for serious relationship only. With someone, who will not demand to share expenses, because I wish to be stay at home wife (though I have high education and work experience). Someone, who can take my problems, as his own. Who will not run away, when knows about my health problems, that demand surgical help (not plastic surgery, but more serious. Not in urgent condition, but if not to do anything, then can become urgent. All papers are on hands, ready to prove that need, when we meet, both in papers and in together visit to surgeon). Why do I mention this in my text? Because 99% of men expect to build relationships with successful, healthy woman without any problems, who will never need any help from him, who will not be a burden in any way, who will stay young, sexually active and healthy forever. Most of men event don't have an idea to do anything real for her. They call that "to be with a girlfriend". So I just save your time in case, if you "want a girlfriend experience" without any responsibility. Sadly, through all life I haven't met anyone, who would make me feel, that I mean something for him, that I'm in high priority in his life. I don't pretend to be the priority number one, because I respect other important things in his life. I have bad experience of previous relationship, that always stayed only online because of dishonest of people, with whom I talked. Now I feel myself poisoned with self hatred, feeling of fault and insignificance, full of trust issues and cynical ideas about nature of human's relationship. I crave for reciprocity, that may cure me. I don't really believe, that I will meet such person , because what I search is very specific. Let it be just another useless cry in desert. Only real honest mature single man, please. With possibility of voice and video calls later. I am very introverted by nature and when like someone, this person becomes almost a center of my world, I don't need any other men, I'm one-man-woman. I wish someone, who is same, one-woman-men. Who will not be irritated with my hobbies (staying in, reading), who will really enjoy to be with me, who will show me his appreciation in day to day life without cheap words, but with simple acts of love, kindness, care. If you think, you can be that man, then, please, write me about yourself and let's start our conversation. Thanks for your attention.