I 30F, have been friends with - lets call him Jack- 54M for over a year. I had always been very obvious in my lust for him, but assumed if Jack ever took my advances on, it would be a one night thing. Fast forward to this weekend where he casually invited me around and I stayed the whole weekend. It was unplanned but things just felt so right.

I won't go into specifics, but we shared the strongest emotional, physical and spiritual connection either of us had ever felt. We cared for eachother, we kissed, we cried, we fell in love.

I feel like I'm going crazy, he's 24 years older than me, I have so much life I want to live and Jack is settled as he is now, but the connection between us is undeniable.

He asked me to be his, but I couldn't. Jack is closer in age to my father than he is mine. He looks visibly older than me. My family would lose their mind. I'm so scared of what people would think, but I have never felt anything like this in my life.

I am destroyed.

I'm sorry for the ramble, I know it hardly makes any sense, but I just don't know if I made the right decision. The head won over the heart.

I guess I just want to know what I could potentially be getting myself into, if I told him I had changed my mind.