I have always been drawn to older men (30-60) and I could go on and on about how much more attractive they are to me than people my age. My family was not there for me as a child and I‘ve recently moved far away from them, which is why right now I‘m really lonely and constantly thinking about having someone waiting for me at home when I come back from work.

Only I have no idea how to make this a reality…

I live in a pretty conservative town in Bavaria where having a good image matters a lot. Some of my closest friends are over the age of fifty and people are already calling it a red flag when I talk about how much they mean to me.

It doesn’t help that I am 21 but still regularly get confused for a 15-16 year old. There are so many problems that come with this. I could dress older but that just wouldn’t be me.

But the biggest problem is that I have no idea how to find a suitable person. I have never really dated anyone. I have gotten approached by a lot of guys my age but I don‘t feel anything for them. It is almost impossible to start conversations with the men I‘m actually interested in in my daily life. I don‘t want to try online dating or long distance relationships either…

How can I begin to fix this problem?

I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense. I just kind of started ranting.