I 23 (Trans MAN) have had my fair share of partners- all older than me but different age ranges. Some 20s, 40s, and 50s.

Last year, I met and fell in love with my oldest. I was 21 turning 22 and he was 50 turning 51. We started as just friends. I'd go over and watch some shows with him. He'd sit far away in a separate chair to make sure I felt safe and comfortable. We'd go on lunch dates. We'd message all the time when we were away from each other. I'd start my morning messaging him and he'd end his nights with a good night message from me. I miss that so much.

Then one day he started sitting on the same couch as me. This escalated to cuddles. Months later we started to have sex.

I remember the first time we tried hooking up. We went to his room for the first time. It had been months into our "situationship." He leaned in to kiss me and I had to awkwardly explain that I didn't know how to kiss. Sure, I had received a peck here and there from a guy over the years, but I always pulled away. But this time-- this very sexy older man had to teach me how to kiss back. How to embrace him. I'd been with guys my age, but they were never patient. They never cared to take their time. He wanted me to rub his body. Again-- I'd never done that before. No man had ever wanted that. They'd wanted to just have sex. Use my body. They didn't care to be intimate. He touched mine. I remember shaking like a chihuahua because I was so nervous and him telling me that he'd stop if it was too much. I enjoyed how his hands felt. How come no one else had ever touched me that way?

Months later, I had my first ever orgasm with a man. Why did my younger partners never have to time to make sure I was pleased? I would be fucked then have to go home to get myself off.

He taught me to admire his body. Play with his nipples. Kiss him everywhere. especially his neck.

Not sure why I posted this. But I feel like older men are more patient and sexually experienced. I'd been hooking up and seeing men for 2 years when he and I met, but still he was many firsts for me. I want to find an older man to love like this again. To teach me things. I don't think younger men are capable of this... are they? Am I incapable of finding someone my age who is patient and kind. Who doesn't just want to fuck?