We broke things off, her parents wouldn't approve and her family means everything to her. It was a difficult decision but I don't blame her, I just miss her. It's been 3 months. I was hesitant initially to be with her but soon discovered how comfortable I was. It was the best relationship I've had, we knew we weren't going to end up together. We did things that I wouldn't have dreamt of doing, in a way it was very liberating experience. Both mentally and sexually. Now I'm in a situation where I find it very difficult to engage women my age, no matter how educated or their background. It's always the same expectations, you are constantly judged.

Seeing the world through a younger woman's eyes can make me feel years younger and understand what's going on in the world better than my old and cynical view or those of my contemporaries. I think it’s the enthusiasm and energy as much as anything that I find attractive in a younger woman. Or a more old fashioned word vitality/vigor. The capacity to live and develop is still strong. Don’t get me wrong my days of hitting the bars and clubs are long gone but it’s the attitude to learn new skills and ideas and visit places of interest rather than the more jaded attitudes and behaviors of my contemporaries.

Thanks for reading.