So, I posted on another sub but I guess I could find more people who get me here. I’m not actually looking for advice cause there’s not much to do in my situation, I just wanted to share my experience.

It’s gonna be a long post, sorry. Skip it if it’s boring.

So, I’m attracted to my personal trainer. Physically, cause his body is hard as a rock. But lately I’ve become also emotionally attached.

Here’s everything that happened from the beginning: (this is from an old post) As soon as I walked into his gym he’s been eyeing me so much. First thing he did was offer me a massive discount on the membership just to get me to be there. For reference I’m 26 and he’s at least 15 years older. He’s got this huge daddy energy that you can’t miss. Always trying to talk dirty whenever he can. “You should call me coach and be a good obedient girl here okay” I nearly fainted after that. He’s got a great body obviously and a handsome face with fine lines which I find so attractive. He showed me his motorcycle today while I was drinking my pre workout and I told him I’ve always liked them and he said “I’ll give you a ride sometime if you behave” 😭 please why is he talking like such a dom. Also he’s super touchy when I’m doing my sets putting his hands on mine “to show me the right way to do it”. Today I asked him if there’s any specific clothing I should buy and he said “next time just wear shorts and not those stupid leggings that clench to your skin like that okay?”. Also I told him that I’m looking into doing a bigger number of sets as I have lots is energy and he said “I’ll make sure to wear you down so much next time that you can’t walk”.

Now from the last couple of days:

One day I was feeling dizzy after my workout and he made me sit down and he was hand feeding me a protein bar and made me drink from his water bottle and said “what am I gonna do with you, little girl” 💕 I was blushing so hard.

He had to take my measurements to track my progress. For this I had to be in just my underwear. I was wearing boxer briefs and a strapless bra. While he was measuring me he was being so gentle and warning me where he was going to touch me next. It wasn’t sexual but it definitely was intimate and something that brought us closer. As I was leaving he seemed to let his intrusive thoughts win and pulled my long hair by my ponytail. I was facing away but didn’t turn back cause I didn’t know how to act.

Next day he pulled my hair again. He was super hard on me with my sets, increasing the difficulty every next day. Obviously I asked him to do so, but still he was ruthless. “You said you like being in pain right?” He added weight to one of my exercises that I normally do without weight and forced me to say “thank you coach” in front of everyone. We’re just a small group of 4-5 women with me being the youngest. I guess they’re used to him taking nonsense but I was mortified. He wasn’t letting it go or even looking away so I said it. Twice. It was so embarrassing.

We were on a personal session as everyone bailed on Monday. He noticed I was chewing gum and put his open hand in front of my face and asked me to spit it. I was shocked that he wanted me to spit it in his hand but did it. He didn’t say anything. Since then I’ve been chewing gum every day and if we’re alone he always makes me spit it like that.

So if you haven’t picked up on it yet, I have a huge daddy kink and he has all the qualities that I like. I don’t know if I’m projecting onto him or if he’s giving me hints he likes the same??

I was working on my glutes that same day and he said again: I’m going to touch you and grabbed my butt making me squeeze harder. (He’s always warning me before he touches me 😭 like I would mind at all). I wasn’t pushing hard enough and he said he was going to show me how. I cupped his ass to see how to do the exercise right and he grabbed my hand and said: you’re supposed to put the back of your hand, not cup my ass. But I don’t mind at all” 😭

He’s also always reminding me to breathe heavily during and after my sets and many many times says things like “I want to hear you panting heavy here. Let it all out. I’m going to lock all the doors if I have to.” “Yell and scream and moan, whatever you have to, I want you to be loud when you’re here”

Next day I was dizzy again and had to sit down. I said “give me something” almost inaudible cause there were other people around and he came to me and said into my ear “oh I’ll give you something alright” He often comes to me like that and whispers dirty things in my ear “call me coach again like that. Say thank you coach so nicely.” So, I was dizzy and he gave me a mini pouch of honey to lick to raise my blood sugar and said “yeah I’m gonna teach you to suck and lick so expertly” I wanted to say that I’m already the best at it but I was embarrassed cause there were others around. The next few days he knew I got dizzy and when I was in the shower in the changing rooms he was calling my name every five minutes or so to check I haven’t fainted in there.

I was leaving to meet with a friend after the gym so I got ready there, got all dolled up and everything and then I asked him if I looked okay. He said “come here” and I walked towards him between his legs (he was sitting down) and he pulled my skirt down to my hips and said “better”. I said “you’re touching me?” It was almost like a question. Of course he touches me when I’m with weights or something but that was different. He said “you’re pretty”. And then I turned around and left 🥲 just like I do whenever it gets a bit heated up.

Well, I’ll most likely do a part two soon cause there’s more and my post is already too long. ❤️