Parents found out about my girlfriend and went nuclear. I begged them to meet her first before rendering any judgment, but they wouldn't hear it and gave me an ultimatum: them or her.

And honestly, I had to put some thought into that. As much as I am in love with her and am really starting to see a possibility of a future together more and more, the age gap feasibility does make it a risk. I talked about it with her and she was completely understanding that it's a risk and told me she will understand whatever decision I make, with no bitterness or judgment on the matter. She is seriously so damn incredible.

Finally made the call, I'm going to stay with her, and let my parents know. And I am now crashing at my girlfriend's place which has been... interesting lol. Watching her get ready for work in the morning is so damn cute. In a few weeks my next and last school year will start, and I'll be making the decision of whether to stay in dorms as I have been, or stay with her, which will essentially be the decision of whether I'm moving in with her permanently or whether this is a temporary arrangement. In addition to just the benefit of living with my girl and seeing her every day, this would end up saving me a lot of money on dorm costs and such, which is now a really relevant factor since my parents will no longer be supporting me.

Offhandedly this may seem like a no brainer, but it does bother me a bit. I don't like that moving in together is something I may do out of necessity, rather than a decision we make together with no pressure just because that's what we want to do. Don't get me wrong, I would love to move in with her. If I was out of school and working and independent, we probably would have done that already, maybe I would even have proposed already. But the fact that I'm considering the financial conveniences of it instead of just "I love her and I want to see her all the time"... feels sleezy. So got a few weeks to mull this over before I have to make the final call of living on campus or not.

Hopefully my parents and I can reconcile one day, but I'm not leaving her.