24F I was talking to someone closer to my age and he’s very sweet, but to me, he’s so immature on so many levels and much more things combined; the more I talk to him the more I get repulsed by him. Everytime I talk to someone closer my age I get the same results. I was hanging out with my friends yesterday and they’ve collectively decided to tell me how they’ve notice I’m all over much older men. “Tell us about your obsession with old white men”.Like, woah. I could’ve sworn I was very super inconspicuous about it, like super. I denied it and call them crazy, but as I got home I couldn’t help but to admit to myself that they were right on so many levels. Every single fricken day I don’t just daydream about naughty things with a much older husband but someone who also spoils me in every way, teach me about life, and can just be overall super submissive to. I feel like a weirdo and maybe even a sicko when I compare myself to others interest. There’s really not much girlys out there who feel the same, especially intensely. It also doesn’t help when older men are super intimidated by a young pretty thing and think you may have ulterior motives. Let’s not forget about weeding out the ones who just want sex. I really sometimes wish I was normal. I really see myself dying single and everyday I have come to terms with it. Sorry for the rant but I really needed to let it out.