Met a new friend (37M) on the internet. (I'm 20F.) Started talking not too long ago, but he's been pretty kind and makes friendly internet man company. (I say that to mean that I have no idea how girls hang out with men, but I am also doing my best to be good company.)

Things are going well. I'm flirting maybe a little (for no specific reason other than that I am a big flirt and he doesn't mind), but it's definitely still mostly a sort of a...discovery thing. We're still learning about the other person, family, love, and shit like that. Very worried about my being a huge chatterbox because he's not the kind of guy to write a ton, but he does listen very well and comments on the important points he sees. I like that.

I'm going over for a late night smoke tonight, and I find myself really looking forward to it. I'm excited to just relax around someone and shoot ideas at them. How does one "not fuck it up" when trying to both be yourself and not be the total death ray of sunshine and energy I often feel I am? I have no idea. I'm just a little anxious that in person he won't take me seriously because I kind of don't shut up. However, I'm trying to keep an open mind about the whole thing.

We also might have sex, which is neat. Something I'm partially interested in because it's maybe a good way to know someone, but I don't expect it to change much, lol. I'd be pretty surprised if there are any feelings that grow out of it. I'm just glad I'm talking to new people, finally out of my bubble.