*Throwaway account for reason and sorry for bad english, not primary language

Some context she is a 20f and i'm 40m, we was in a semi ldr relationship, she spent long period of time at my home (1month at my home, 1 month at her home).

This relationship was pushed a little bit by her, we know each other for quite some year (6 ) cause other situation

After one year of ldr we decided that she'll transfer to my home but a week before the transfer she started to doubt the relationship and dumped me (she was at her home at that time) sending always mixed signal cause she didn't want to stop writing me.

Her motivation were fear of the age gap and of the judgement of people (her family agreed to the relationship btw), and the will to try the university life with her friends, i told her i could understand her motivation but obviously can't agree on the breakup.

She asked for a last encounter, i agreed only if there were a possibility for the relationship, she wanted to meet and spent 5 days at my home and acted like she was yet my girlfriend.

Anyway she decided to go on with her decision and asked if she could come back if she repent the choice, she asked cause she see a future with me with family and son etc, i told her that if this happens she must find a way back on her own

One thing to note is tht she always talked about choice she have, not decision she made.

A month passed by, sometimes she wrote me some message but i asked to contact me only for urgent matter or for a change of hearth

In one of the last message she wrote that she started to go out with a friend and see what happen with this guy cause she want to try a relationship with someone of her age (i'm her second relationship with age gap, first one was 10yr age gap)

So about a week ago, after a week of radio silence she sent me a tiktok with the red wire story (akai ito) and the day after blocked me only on whatsapp (i unfollowed on instagram after the broke up), but not blocking on any other social or app (tiktok, insta, discord).

This is not the first time that she disappeared from my life and come back and every time she disappeared she left hidden message on the gaming app or social app where i can find them

I know that she probabily is in another relationship and that this is the end of it so nothing more to questioning i think

What i'm asking and trying to understand is why she sent the akai ito story and why block me only on whatsapp

This is my first and only age gap relationship and can't understand this dynamic

A younger girl perspective would be appreciated

Thank you if you read this all!