For context - I [18F] am still a virgin. I graduated high school this month and want to start exploring my sexuality. Growing up, I had plenty of opportunities to have sex but never found guys my age attractive. Instead, I've always been more attracted to older men. Until recently, I couldn't do anything about it.

Last week, I made a post on AgeGapPersonals and met a guy [38M] more than twice my age. We instantly clicked and went on two separate dates. He’s handsome, kind, smart, and funny as fuck. He gave me my first kiss and we had a long makeout session in his car yesterday. I don't care about the 20 year age difference.

However, I am a little intimidated by his experience. He was previously married for 8 years and got divorced last year. He had a very active sex life throughout his marriage. He only had one other partner since then. We both have the day off today and plan to be at his apartment all day. We will be having sex but I'm afraid of disappointing him.

He reassured me that I won't disappoint him. He promises to make the experience all about me. We talked about boundaries. He promises to do things slowly and will ask if I am okay every step of the way. I am nervous but also very excited. I'm finally doing it. This is something I really want to do. Too horny to sleep tonight.

I also have a breeding kink and wouldn't mind doing it raw. He has a vasectomy and recently did a fertility test (he is childfree) and I am on birth control. Not really worry about getting pregnant and I live in a state where abortion is legal. We both been tested for STDs. I already verified everything. We plan to be exclusive fuck buddies until I start college. Not ready for a long term relationship. Just want to have fun. I have no one to talk to because of the age gap. Wish me good luck.