Hey yall, and thanks for taking a read. I am going to kick every little piece of with a very blunt blurb as to why I need the help, and then hit some details, but, essentially I have the social skills of a 2x4, and thats if I am being generous to myself. I have been dealing with a lot of years of lying, manipulation, people taking advantage, just a slew of things that never really had any benefit, and it caused damage/prevented growth that I should have had being at the age I am.

I have been attempting to date since I was 17 (lucky to have my first gf then) and through the 19 subsequent years only added 4 relationships since then, all of them quite literally blind luck. Broken clock logic, but, now that I have bulled through a severe situation there, I find myself looking, and have for quite some time but I have absolutely no idea what I am doing. I legit feel like Dale from Tucker and Dale vs Evil, and it just kinda sucks.

I need the utmost advice from everyone, for finding people, meeting people, pursuing them properly, or putting myself into a position to be pursued, I just have no idea what on earth to do, and it's rough. Not impossible but I have definitely discovered that I didn't really learn a damn thing growing up, or from most of the people I was "fortunate" enough to have around me. So, anything yall could help with, to truly pursue anything would be fantastic. I thank you for your time, and in advance for any help.